Im an onion because every time another peel has fallen to get closer to the destination another tear has fallen along with it. first peel first tear second peel second tear the pain is gets unbearable but as i forcefully wipe it away i get stronger but feel weaker. i try to love,but get a cold grin in return. i try to appreciate,but get it snatched out my hand. i try to forgive, but get hurt once again. i try to hide it mentally putting it in a box to burn. lying in my bed all alone in the dark i feel the uge to hurt something. talking to myself when im angry just to keep my name from being underlined as the definition in the dictionary for the word murder. but when i try and use my smile to as a smile but its gets fainter as more hurt and anger fill my heart. i feel more alone every second of the day but i guess i might as well just tat it on me. i got to except it no matter how much i try the lies always win but i know i gotta keep going because i know there's a reason i wake up everyday i have something to live for and i say this wit a fully cold heart aching to be warmed. i will stand and i will keep my eyes and head up because i have something to live for and no matter how much the pain makes me feel i want to be a serial killer i will never let it have the last word. because i know i am an onion and every layer will just have to dissapear. |
Friday, April 29, 2011
im an onion
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
love
Love is something that can not be explained, love is something that scientists and many experts like phsychiatrists have tried to completely understand. love his something that you find with another gender, but it is NOT completely based upon sex as many young people think it is. Many young people think this way because of things like the internet, music, t.v., even the people their age and what they see around them, and since they are still in adolescence this makes matters worst. But love is suppose to be something that you truly cherish and share from one persson to another as water and sunshine to make a beautiful flower.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Search For Safety
Things you will need:1.Larry 2.Dezmond 3.Ben 4.Geneva 5.Aunt Fay 6.Mr.Graham 7.Trust 8.Faith Step1:Put yourself in Ben's shoes look through his eyes have a mother name Geneva who marrys a man name Larry and have a truly loving Aunt name Fay who has cared for you and your mother Geneva for many years. Step2: Have your Aunt Fay move away at the time that you need her the most when you move to a different home with your new stepfather and Mom and have to go to a new school and leave your old friends. Step3: Have your stepfather Larrybeat you and your mother every time the slightest incident as the house being unclean. Be full of fear everytime you come home when Larry is drinking or drunk from an adult beverage of the thought of being brutally beaten. Step4:Go to your new school name Bluford High and be looked down on just because you get free breakfast. Have many thoughtful offers of help because of bruises and scars and keep your life at home a secret and turn away because you don't want to feel like a charity case Step5:Get a suprise visitor at school and see your mother's life is in danger embrace her as if you were a 5 year old who didn't want to go to their first day of kindergarten release your secrets and tell it all. Step6:Feel safe but then have to be fully cautious when you see your stepfather murderous glare and feel trapped. Step7:Finnally feel like you're in control again once you know for sure that your problem late night cries and desperate needs of love and are fully behind bars and be in total darkness but feel like you found the pot of gold ;)
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Bam-Bam & Pebbles!
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